Chocolate Cakes and Ko Ko Krunch.

Supper time again! On the menu tonight, is a slice of chocolate cake, with chopped walnuts and almonds sprinkled on it. Along the sides, is a handful of Ko Ko Krunch! Happy food at night means a good night's sleep, and about 1kg gain in weight the next morning. =D

Bought this really cheap thrill gadget at school today. Its a pen with 2 inks. A black ink and an invisible ink. On the other end, its a laser pointer and UV Light. Now, I can write secret love notes to myself, and use the UV Light to read secret love notes from myself! COOL RIGHT?! Here comes the stupid part. I paid $10 for it.

Okay, tomorrow's Wednesday, GEMs day... Boating Theory is fun and all... but... the PPCDL course is so expensive. I'm seriously wondering if I really wanna go for the license. Darn.

Hope I get the tech support job at school. Can start earning a bit of side income to supplement my savings for a new bow. $5 an hour, sounds like its gonna take for-fucking-ever. ARgh. listening to the rain... 11:47 PM 0 comments

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Sorry agent 007, you got owned by a penguins. Tough Luck.

Animated comedy Happy Feet has held off Casino Royale at the North American box office for the second weekend in a row.

Its dancing penguins stayed at number one, taking $37.9m (£19.6m), compared to $31m (£16m) for the Bond thriller.

Happy Feet has now earned $100m (£52m) in a fortnight, a period which includes the annual US Thanksgiving holiday.

Yeah, I think I'm gonna go catch Happy Feet and Open Season. Suddenly feel like I'm in the mood for cartoons. Seriously, I saw the trailers for the 2 of them I thought they were not bad. Take a break off killing, bloodshed, explosives and sex for a while. Sorry Bond, but I'd take Revy over you any time. You can take your martini on the rocks, shaken not stirred to the Penguins. Revy! Absolutely love you, Bitch!

Damn, I really need to spend more time shooting. I totally lost my instincts for shooting. All this time, I was shooting without my instincts. No wonder I kept fouling up my shots and end up getting so frustrated. I forgot what it really means to aim. What its is to shoot with the heart.

Pardon me if I use this cheesy "Zen" philosophy. Before the arrow can pierce the target, heart must pierce the target. The Chinese Martial arts novels got one thing right when they came up to the theology of swordsmanship, I now apply to archery. The first level of mastery is, “心中有剑，手中有剑，目中有剑.” The swordsman is able to overcome his enemies because his sword is in his heart, the sword is in his hands/body, and the sword is in his mind.

The second level of weapon mastery is, “心中有剑，手中无剑，目中有剑.” The swordsman is able to overcome as he weapon is in his heart, and in his mind, though his hands do not hold the weapon. Even without the physical weapon, he is able to overcome as though he has the weapon.

Finally the 3rd level, and the hardest, “手中无剑，目中无剑，心中有剑.” Without a state of consciousness, without the physical weapon, the pure passion and instinct of the heart leads the weapon master to overcome.

Its then, and only then, the weapon master is at one with his weapon. And the first level will become the level of true mastery. "心中有剑，手中有剑，目中有剑."


The ＂手＂represents our hands, our body parts. To have the weapon in your hands is to practice, to hone and refine our muscle memory of using the weapon.

The ＂目＂represents our mind. The consciousness. It keeps track of where the enemy is, and where your weapon is, and keeps everything in relation. Its the feel of every part of your body, that mental awareness. To the Chinese, to be in ones view ＂目＂ is also to be in ones' mind.

The ＂心＂represents our instinct, the 6th sense. It is the hardest refine as it is often clouded out by inputs of the above 2. One is not able to master one's potential of weapon mastery unless his is able to master his instincts. Mastering not in a sense of control. But to allow the instinct to align the alertness of the mind, the familiarity of the motion. However, it must not be allowed to OVERCOME the mind and body, or one will lose control of his art completely, and shoot entirely only instinct and imaginations of instinct. Hence the Chinese coined the term, ＂走火入魔．＂

The path to weapon mastery is a long and tedious. Many hours must be spent in practice, refining the body, mind and instinct. And it seems that I've neglected my training too much. As a result, I forgot to listen to my instinct, instead, focusing on aligning the target to sight pin. An advice an old fart once gave to me on marksmanship. The alignment of your weapon is but the first step to aiming. There must be an alignment of the heart, the instinct to the target. You must feel the heart reaching out to the target, like an invisible trajectory. That invisible trajectory may bring the sight off the target a little, but that is fine... allow that "reach" to feel around for its what its trying to grasp. And when it has grasped, that is the time to shoot. To release.

Don't know what I'm talking about? I don't blame you. Its one of the amazing paradoxes in life. Its complicated yet its simple. Just like the human heart. So it seems that the saying is true. The Heart of the matter, is the matter of the Heart. listening to the rain... 11:40 PM 0 comments

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Sunday's over!

Just chillin at my balcony now, having a milo, watching "that 70's show." I guess this is one of the little things I do when I need to unwind at the end of the day.

"BUT ITS A SUNDAY!! WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO UNWIND FROM?!"

Stereotypically, that may be true. In my case, I think Sundays are my "make or break" day for the entire week. Sometimes, some good stuff may happen on Sundays... I shall decline to describe what they are. And these things do make me feel better, and improve my outlook on life and the coming week of school. It doesn't give me hope, but it shows me this lil sparkle of light at the end of the tunnel. Then there is the crappy stuff, that happen. Or the extremely dull Sundays. Its the kinda day that makes me wish I was never born.

Sundays are my lonely days. Where I'll usually sit alone in service, eat alone after service, and travel home alone. Its almost strange, to be so near my "friends" and yet be existing in this empty void that is a part of this reality. It felt like I was a ghost. To be among so many people, but to be among no one. Sometimes, its like I was made of glass, and would only be noticed when they walked right into me. I hate Sundays.

Come to think of it, I hate Mondays too. But that itself is an entirely different matter.

Oh, I remember having this conversation with Shimin and the rest of the guy archers surrounding her. (SHE shouldn't have started it) She said, that it is better for girls to be "Stupid" and not notice the events around her. And that guys often misunderstand girls to be complicated creatures when they are not. I had to contest that. Girls are COMPLICATED. They are fickly minded, they don't know if they really want to hear the truth, or be cradled by lies. They want to say they are unhappy with you, but yet they don't want to say it out, and expect guys to know it. They want to be "sayanged" but yet, they pout and turn away all attention given to them.

Of course, I won't say they are like that ALL the time. But when there's trouble, they can turn out that way. But I think we guys are at fault as well. We are too dumb and direct for our own good. Sometimes, if it fixes the situation by telling a lie, just tell it. I'm sure that got the attention of female readers here (mostly).

"NO! We girls appreciate it when guys are honest!!"

Touch your heart and ask yourself, is that true? If you bake a nice cake for your boyfriend or hubby, and when u ask him if its nice, do you really want him to tell the truth, "I think its so-so only." Or if you buy him a nice shirt or ring, and he doesn't like the design, do you really want him to say, " I don't like this kinda pattern, I'm not gonna wear it." I suspect 2 events would happen if a guy says that. The end of the world as we know it will happen instantaneously, or Hell would freeze over. It is better that we guys cross our fingers behind our backs, and say "Yes dear, I love IT!" THEN pray that we'd not be struck by lightning OR be fed any more horrible pastries OR be forced to wear hideous shirts.

So does that mean we guys would love you less because we lie to you? That the relationship means nothing to us, that we cannot even tell the truth about these matters? No. As the ending of "that 70's show" would put it, We love you too much to tell you the truth, and see the disappointment on your faces. Sometimes, the truth hurts, and we don't want to be the ones who hurts you. Forgive our little dishonesty and maybe try not to put us in such difficult positions future.Making a choice between going to hell for our dishonesty, and seeing the one we love hurt by our words is kinda hard. But we'd rather go to hell in most cases.

Moving along...

I feel it coming soon. And I honestly don't want to face it. It feels like a slap in the face, for failing in so much. Its not just another year... its the mark in a person's life. Where a person's success and potential for success is gauged. I know I don't stand anywhere near my peers. I cocked up too much in my younger days. I wish I never, but I can't turn back time. Its such a stressful and helpless feeling to wake up from my past lifestyle of video games, to realise that life is NOT a video game that can be "Restarted."

I've done my best to get my life back on track, and perhaps to fast track it back to what its supposed to be. I've worked HARD in school, striving to best myself in all academic aspects. But yet I still have to face the harsh critiques of my former life. You think I enjoy being where I am now? To be among Poly students as peers when I'm 6 years older than them? No, I do not hate them or anything. They are my friends whom I've come to love. Many of them are like my younger brothers and sisters to me. But to me, and to my critiques, its a humbling experience. Just imagine someone whose supposed to be in P6 being retained in a P1 class. Thats the kind of sadness, and criticisms that I face.

Every morning I wake up hoping that this reality that I know is just a dream, a nightmare. Unfortunately, this reality takes only 2 seconds to sink in, dispelling any notion that I'm actually some guy who is already working somewhat successfully, and dating some beautiful woman who'd be my wife. *poof*

Sometimes, I just don't want to wake up.

PS: I'm sick and tired of hearing the "Then do something about it!" pseudo-encouragement that comes from so called "people who care." Often its the critiques themselves who are using it as an excuse to talk shit about me. I am already doing my best about it, and I've done as well as I possibly can. I'm getting tired... and all I've done is apparently inadequate to silence the criticisms.

What more can I do, and what more do you all expect from me? What?

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Drifting n Shaking.

Just kinda laying in my bed now. Not really doing much besides thinking of what I wanna blog about. Listening and feeling my own heart beat, and enjoying that "drifting" sensation every time I lie down. Call it my cheap thrill. There's this funny sensation of drifting/floating, as I feel my own heart throb against the mattress. Ha!

Was out in the afternoon for Archery today. I intended to take score, however, by the time I got round to it, it started to rain. Only managed to record for 2 ends and it started to pour.

Went to town after archery for Ice Cream at Swensens. Haven't been there for makan for damn long time already. So many familiar sights and sounds as I walked along Orchard. So many places bring memories of time spent together, and the same question that has bugged me ever since. What did I do wrong? Am I that terrible? Spent a bit of time pondering at those places that we were at, running through every single conversation that we had, and what I did... I simply can't recall if there was anything I did or said that she could have been displeased with. I did everything a friend would do. I dared not suggest anything else.

Thats history already I guess. I'm already over her. Unfortunately, I'm not a person who enjoys "not knowing", hence, some of these questions bug me. Knowing that I did something to lose a friendship like that, haunts me.

However, thanks to her, I also learned to see the poor. There were so many people out there, asking for donations and alms. An old man sat under one of the decorated trees, playing on his harmonica. He was an amputee and was missing a leg. Even as it started to drizzle, he did not show signs of packing up or leave, but continued to play. It was a rhetorical question that came up, "why doesn't he leave for shelter? He's not completely immobile." The answer flowed naturally. He didn't have the luxury to. Remember the poor.

It's been a long day for me. But a good one. Really had a good day hanging out with the archers, thanks to Bern's great Ice Cream Suggestion. Ice Cream always makes people happy. Tested and proven, people smile(externall and internally) more when they are eating Ice Cream!

Research proves that Ice Cream is great!

Paiseh if I've been a little out of it today though. A lot of unanswered questions to ponder about. listening to the rain... 11:19 PM 0 comments

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I'm too old for CS

Met Lionel and Jeremy @ Molberry block for CS this afternoon. Stupid fat lady at Molberry was giving me a headache about wearing a lanyard. Apparently, in order to make use of facilities at Molberry, one must be wearing a lanyard... which I feel is retarded. Nobody wears a lanyard around school except for the lecturers. So UNCOOL.

I'm getting too old for these action games. Reflex time and aiming time too slow. Can't think fast enough for these games anymore. Thank God I stopped gaming a long time a go though.

Spent the day at home playing navy field and surfing the net for videos. And look what I found... Have you ever seen a 70ton tank, fly? The Americans have, and so have the iraqi insurgents.



Scary huh?

Back to my boredom, and downloading Bleach 104. listening to the rain... 11:28 PM 0 comments

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Skack-O day!

Late again as usual! Arrived for math tutorial a full hour late. Thankfully the lecturer was still kind enough to let me view my MST transcript. And once again, my theory seems to be proven. I got 93 pts for the math paper. WTF right? I don't know why either, but every module, thing, or activity that I hate, I do well in it.

Went for RWP class, the stupid report I rushed last night til 2am was.... NOT A MANDATORY SUBMISSION! DAMN IT! All the lecturer did was go thru some of the errors for each of us and give us points to improve. Good thing yes... but not worth losing sleep over. ARGh! Shot myself in the foot unnecessarily again.

Spent the rest of the afternoon in clubhouse playing Commandos 2 on my laptop. Yes I'm that bored. Nothing else to do on Thursday afternoons wad... Played like a few missions b4 calling it a day and left with the rest of the archers @ 7pm.

Took MRT home today. Yes, its special cos I usually take 74. Anyways, that was cos the rest of the archers were going to Mr Wee's place to buy some stuff. Since they were gonna take the tube to Bishan, I figured I'd join them. Hmmm, saw a rather pleasant looking lady on the train. She looks like she got off work at Raffles or something. Exchanged glances and smiles... haha! Bet the rest of the archers didn't see that! Unfortunately, we didn't exchange numbers. I'm shy lar! Come to think of it, she does remind me of Jacqueline a bit... particularly the eyes. Its a rare occasion that I take the MRT at this kinda hour and day, hence, I doubt I'll ever see her again. Sharks.

Just to clarify. I'm not a flirt! Its impolite to stare, hence if a girl sees you looking at her, its only polite to just smile! Ya, my eyes like to look at pretty stuff, but I'm a guy! 我懂得欣赏。。。 =D listening to the rain... 8:57 PM 0 comments

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Tennis balls!

We were damn bored. BK, Bern, Fiz, and myself were just standing/sitting in the club house, tossing a tennis ball around to each other. Accidentally headshot BK twice... LOL! Sorry bro! What to do? We were bored!! So someone figured it was good practicing our hand-eye coordination.

Got to school late again. Missed 4 hours of classes in the morning. I was tired, my arms hurt and I really really REALLY didn't wanna go to school. Not a good excuse, but I don't care.

Slacked around in the clubhouse until 7pm or so. Took a nap, looked at some of Elcintha's drawings n stuff. Basically just decompose. Slacked so much cos I needed to burn time. Went to Chris's birthday party at 7.30pm.

Here's the best part. WE HAD SUKIYAKI!! MMMMMMM!!! Lovely stuff! Had a good time just chit chatting and enjoying the time to spend with family. Its always hilarious to see the same habits popping out from my dad and uncle kin mun.

Here's the Sukiyaki... DROOL!


Swimming around in it was some really really premium cuts of beef, some pork, Mushrooms (Various assortment), Lotus roots, fishballs, toufu, veges... Really shiok sia.

Guess what? After this sumptuous meal.... I ... need to get back to work on my report writing. DAMN IT! listening to the rain... 11:37 PM 0 comments

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Oww!!

Stupid arm hurts. Sigh, don't wanna embarrass myself to explain how I hurt it. Just hope it recovers by this Saturday. Big fat juicy hope though.

I was an hour and half late for school today. I got up, and felt the pain in my arm, and suddenly the notion of getting up just disappeared. I continued to snooze for another hour before my conscience decided to bite me.

Got back my paper for NSM. I only studied the day before the paper. I scored 84 for it.. okay lar. Quite satisfied with the results. It was initially 86, but had 2 marks deducted to to erroneous marking. I don't really care to compete for the "Top Gun" in our class. Doesn't really matter to me. Somehow, some of my classmates think that I'm very competitive and gets pissed off when someone scores better than me. Well, to set the record straight, I don't really give a hamster's ass. I miss my hamster 肥肥。。。 I wonder how's that rodent doing in whatever rodent heaven he's in now... hmm?

I'm waiting to recieve my math paper though. I wonder how I fared. I did study and revise for it, I hope its not too badly done though. I hope its enough to prevent me for getting a B for it. Its strange how much I HATE MATHs, but get straight A's for it. I HATE Programming and get Distinction for it. Contrast that with the things and people I love... I never fail screwing them up to kingdom come. Maybe I should just start Hating stuff more. That oughta fix things... right?

Am I in a bad mood recently? Nope. Feeling kinda cynical lately... oh wait. I think I've been cynical all my life! Ha! Got into some disagreement with my mom again. Over some really small stuff. I CANNOT understand her sometimes. Why make a mountain out of a molehill? I get upset easily when I run into conflicts with ppl close to me. It spoils my day completely.

And the worst thing about it is that there is no place in Singapore that I can go, yell at the top of my lungs, scold to my heart's content without getting arrested and sent to IMH. Hmm maybe that might be a good thing after all.. LOL!

I think I kinda decide to go for the award presentation thing. BK told me that it was a cash cheque thing... hahaha. So that would be something I'd be willing to spend time to go pick up. Only thing sian is that, there won't be anyone to share that bit of joy with. Its not a big deal, but to collect something like that, and have no family member or friends to be around to see it, also kinda sian lar. Nvm, for the sake of money... I'll do it.

Ah that proves my theory again. I love money, but ALWAYS never have enough. DAMN!

Murphy's Theory of Anthony's life. "The chances of failure/fucking up in handling of a task, object, or relationship, is directly proportional to the extent he loves it." listening to the rain... 12:52 AM 0 comments

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Fail? Won't fail lar...

I took 1 look at the MMDT paper, i was like "Crap." Didn't know how to answer most of the questions. I walked in 10 mins late. And I walked out 10 mins after sitting down.

Spent some time in thought about what to do for my MAD project. Its gonna drive me MAD no doubt. Thinking of trying out some bluetooth controller for a robot thing. Might be fun doing. Unfortunately, that would also mean tonnes of research on bluetooth wireless links. =/ Drag....

Spent much of today, playing NavyField, watching Innoncent Venus, and chatting on MSN. Its quite an unproductive day... But look at my "elite uncaring face", do I care? Haha, I couldn't resist the temptation to use that phrase.

It hasn't been a good week for most of us eh? I'm not only bored, kinda lost my desire and reason to work hard anymore. Damn. Being unmotivated in the middle of studies is perhaps one of the biggest obstacles to me. I'm already hard to motivate, and to LOSE motivation... wooo hooo! I suspect my GPA is dropping this sem! listening to the rain... 1:09 AM 0 comments

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Took the words right out of my mouth.

Not much left for me to say is there?

Went to church with my sis today. Sat together with her cell group mate...(I don't call them cell mates, sounds like from prison liddat) Service was good as usual, things I need to hear, but refuse to accept.

Patience wearing thin. 忍。。。

But why do I even bother if its all for nothing in the first place. I don't know man. Trying to find a meaning and a sense of purpose to working hard, a reason why I should care and bother so much. A reason to life. A reason why my stupid head likes to go around in circles asking for reasons to everything.

Let me sleep. listening to the rain... 12:39 AM 0 comments

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I mean Century.

My mistake. Bad english from me. I mean a QUARTER OF A CENTURY.

A decade is 10 years. A Century is 100 years. Yes, its a quarter of a century.

Kinda tired. Disgusted with myself. For having thrown away a good portion of my youth, wasting it away. And now, I'm still a nothing. I hate myself for the mistakes I've made. I hate myself for right things that I did not do. For having lost my dreams, for losing sight of my hopes. For being a nobody in life. I need to find my reason, my purpose. I don't want to get stuck in this hamster wheel forever. To run and run, and go nowhere.

To see my friends, peers... Already independent, some starting their own families already. I feel happy for them. And fucked up about myself. Honestly, I really don't want to see them. Everytime I see them, I feel that I'm being judged for my failures.

I'm tired. Let me enjoy myself, let me have fun. Let me feel alive. Let me feel loved. Give me this break please. Let me just step out from this rat race. I don't want to hate myself for being the last rat. I really don't wanna be a part of it! Even if I win, I'm still a rat! Whats the point?! Let me be free!

Where are you? My deliverer, my salvation. Where are u? My source of hope. Rescue me from this lonely abyss, put me upon eagle's wings. Here I am, hold me in your embrace, and bring me to where I belong.

Where I belong... listening to the rain... 10:36 PM 0 comments

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Enjoying the reprieve.

Last paper for MST is over. Thankfully too! I think I did okay for the math paper today. I am confident of passing! But how well I'll do... I'm not too sure. One thing I noticed about our math papers... they seem a lot tougher than all the past year paper s that I tried. I mean, what da hell, are they stacking against me or what?

Came back home after slacking in school a bit. Spent some time walking around the bazaar, having snacks, chit chatting with Jerms and Benny. I really just need a bit of down time. Heck, I'd like to be permanently switched off as well.

I kinda figured out why I've sort of lost a bit of myself. Lost the spark of life inside me. Its coming to a quarter of a decade, and I realise that a large chunk of "Me" has gone, has died. Ambitions and dreams I had when I was younger, are gone. Most of them, unrealised, and have become an impossibility today. Hopes that I had, died, when the objects of hope disappeared. Feelings... Love and passion that I had for people, soured into hurt and disappointment.

Memories are gone, like how yesterday is gone. History is gone. Soon, I'll be gone. A quarter of a decade is flashing past at light speed, and so much of my life has gone by. Martin said something that brought to something interesting to my mind. It may have been a quarter of decade, but probably half of my life has already passed. Part of me gone, and the part of me that remains... is the part that I loathe.

How do I feel? I can't describe in my own words. So I'll let Linking Park explain.


All I can and should do now, is to live life, without hurting the people around me. Unfortunately, that would be against the very nature of the part of me that remains. listening to the rain... 11:50 PM 0 comments

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MST over in 14 hours!

My maths paper is at 3.30 pm later, and I'm in a celebratory mood already. Don't feel like revising further. Hah! Just wanna switch my brain off an SLACK! I'm a born slacker what to do?

I don't really expect to do well this MST. I know I've slacked a lot this semester, and I'll probably be seeing the first C grades since I entered SP. Some of you are probably thinking, "eh, C is not bad already lor." Yes, I agree. I never expected myself to very well in Poly. Its just that I happened to do so, and I do hope to maintain the track record without putting in too much effort. Ha.

Lost my temper with the school's tech support today. I was so frustrated with my math revision, and the wireless at the Library had to fail again. Called them up, and gave them a shelling. Seriously, there is no reason why they can allow the wireless connection at the Central Library to fail again and again and again. If its the hardware, change the hardware. But I suspect, more than often, its the human ineptitude thats causing it.

And I am disgusted with a tech support desk operator who blatantly tells me that, "We cannot do anything about it." You do NOT tell a paying customer to the Polytechnic, that you cannot do anything to re-establish a service you are supposed to provide. I don't understand how they can get their ISO if they don't even know basic customer service ethos. 3 A's. Acknowledge its your fault, Apologize, and Assure that you are doing your best to work on it. Never EVER say you can't do anything about it. Never say that in defensive tone, ESPECIALLY to me.

By the time I got home, totally not mood to mug or study liao. Didn't do much except sit in front of my laptop, chatting and doing past year paper at the same time. Got everything correct except the last question. I was so tired that I read it wrongly. DAMN!.

Oh, I learnt a new jap phrase from Bernice today! "Anatawa oishiisou!" Hahaha! Don't ever say that to a Jap girl or risk being beaten death and labeled a pervert. It means, "You are delicious!" Apparently, it has some pervertic connotations behind it. .. Hmmmm. I still think is hilarious to walk up to someone, look them straight in the eye, and say "You are delicious" in a straight expressionless face. *gRiN*

Its been a good day. Very stress relieving... vented my frustration at school tech support, had a good time chatting with friends. Watched some really stupid youtube videos. What have I been watching??

Just click play.



Goodnight! listening to the rain... 3:18 AM 0 comments

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SELF DECLARED DAY OFF!! WOO!!

NSM went well today I guess. Won't fail, but no A grade either. Considering how many hours of the lecture I slept through, number of practicals that I missed, I think its a decent outcome.

Friday's the math paper. I hate Graph Theory, I hate Gauss elimination method, and I HATE STATISTICS! I WANNA KILL HAMILTONIAN, EULER, WADEVER DUMB !@#^!*@& MATHEMATICAL GENIUSES SO THAT THEY DON'T MAKE MY LIFE SO MISERABLE!!! YOU DAMN NO LIFE PRICKS!! NOTHING BETTER TO DO GO MAKE A FEW MORE BABIES LAR! THINK OF NEW WAYS TO DO MATH FOR FUCK?!

Okay, that felt much better. Gonna spend tomorrow mugging for math in school... no choice lar, if not will fail... Until now, I cannot recall WHAT DA HELL is a Hamiltonian circuit and what is an Euler circuit. I STILL DON'T know how to transform a graph into a matrix, and I STILL DON'T KNOW HOW TABULATE/ESTIMATE HOW MANY GUYS PEE OUTSIDE THE URINAL OUT OF A THOUSAND!

I have Boxing gloves, ALL I NEED now is a PUNCHING BAG. ARGH!!!

How did my day off get me so pissed off? Oh yeah... cos I SHOULD have been studying... Thats why. listening to the rain... 12:32 AM 0 comments

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Low Batt

Can't believe i spent the entire day studying. I don't know if that is enough though... and honestly speaking I'm past the point of caring.

Kinda stressed out and frustrated lately though. I guess I need to fix that ... heh =D
Thankfully, still managed to get most of my revisions down. Hope I do well enough.

Math on Friday... somebody pls kill me. =( listening to the rain... 3:21 AM 0 comments

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Phew!!

MAD MST was OKAY today. I was studying til 3am last night... and it seems like it paid off. Managed to get 84/100 for the test. It was computer based, hence we knew our score immediately after submission.

Came back home, and totally slacked off today. Tomorrow will be another intensive day of mugging for NSM. Man... I hate all these modules. So dry, so uninteresting. I wanna do something more fun!! ARgh!

Really can't wait for the MSTs to be over. Can't wait for my friends to finish their exams as well. So boring these few weeks... hardly anyone to chit chat with. Darn!

Ah well, I guess I'll sleep early tonight. To make up for the past few days' lost sleep. listening to the rain... 12:39 AM 0 comments

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Sugar. Woah Honey Honey....

If L and I had anything in common ( This is not a cheesy pick up line, "L" is a character from DeathNote.), it would be the incurable sweet tooth. I'm studying for my MAD test tomorrow, and I've just munched on a small bowl of Honey Stars, and am currently sucking on a cheap lollipop. Fortunately thought, I've not developed L's sissy- "I'm too gothic to hold a phone like a man" style of holding a phone.

Been bloody busy the past couple of days. Studying for MAD feels like fighting a losing battle, running and uphill race, trying to pee when you're already empty... err forget that last one. Everything about that module feels hopeless, and almost impossible to absorb. Dang nabbit!

As usual, went for church service this afternoon. Pastor Melvyn preached a very important message for all us today. That we have to seize every opportunity to do good works, or face the seperation of not doing so.

Make no mistake, that we are indeed saved by God's grace. And its by our faith alone, that we receive that salvation. However, faith without works is dead. By missing an opportunity to do something good for the people around us, we commit the sin of omission.

How true it is, that the spirit of indifference is the essence to inhumanity to another being. When you look at another person and do not feel for that person. Sometimes the greatest mistake we make in our lives, is not the terrible things that we've done, but the good, the wonderful, the loving, the caring things that we DID NOT do. A measure of a person shouldn't be what terrible things he has done, but what good things he did. Why should we let the bad have more weightage than the good?

Anyways, after the service, they encouraged everybody to sign up for the bone marrow donor program. Pastor Eugene said this, he promised them, (NUH I think), that the last 300 of the quota would be filled up by YouthNet. I saw at least 500 people in the queue. By time I got there, there was no more forms for me. Dang.

Hey Bern! I think I'll go for the blood donation thing. Sounds like something I should do. Let me know how to around to doing it ya?

Okay, enough time spent bumming and blogging. Back to work! listening to the rain... 11:39 PM 0 comments

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Change of password.

Hi! Its that time of the year again when I feel like a change of password. Will be changing by this Wednesday, 15th November. Thanks for reading my blog, and I hope you all will continue to do so after the password change.

PLEASE MESSAGE ME FOR NEW PASSWORD! Don't be shy. =D


WoooHOoo! Still can hear people playing mahjong at this time of the night. Don't ask me why I'm still awake. I'm TRYING to unwind. listening to the rain... 2:20 AM 0 comments

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Sotong, Cuttlefish, Squid... Blurr....

The world suddenly spins a lil faster when my parents come back from their long trips. Every now and then, I suddenly hear my name being shouted for from across the house. Rush there, and I see my mom asking silly questions again. Which inevitably leads to a barrage of others.

"ANTHONY!!! Why my internet explorer looks so cluttered?" ( Ans: She downloaded some stupid yahoo toolbar.) I hide the toolbar for her, and head back upstairs to work on MAD. Before I reach the end of the staircase... "ANTHONY!! - I wanna go to Four Seasons Hotel! What is the site for the street directory???" *scampers down staircase again*. Click on Favorites, went to STREETDIRECTORY.COM.SG link, and clicked. Off I go back to work... This time before I can reach the staircase, "ANTHONY! The map is TOO SMALL! Can make it any larger?? Better still! Help me go to my car to pick up my StreetDirectory book!"

She passes me the Lexus keys, and I hurry down to the basement. Look around... No Lexus... Dad took the Lexus. Hurry up, "Mom! Dad took the Lexus!" She passes me the key to the other car... and I scamper off again. Retrieved the StreetDirectory, and headed back up. "GOT IT!" *long pause* "ANTHONY! The Street directory image is too small also! Can I enlarge the emailed map with MSWORD?" There was an attached image.... O.O! "YES!" *clickity click click, Map Enlarged!* "MOM! I need to go for archery training! BYE!!!" This time I didn't scamper... I shot myself out of my house like a human cannonball.

Thats just one of my many experiences at home. Rapid traverse in all, X-Y-Z axis of my home. Haizz...

And now, I'm supposed to be studying for MAD, and again, NOTHING is going into this hopeless head of mine. ARGH!!! I KNOW WHY THIS MODULE IS CALLED MAD!! ITS DRIVING ME NUTS!! For some reason, the stupid revision quiz was set to expire at the end of E-learning! And now I can't access it to do the quiz! IT WASN'T MEANT TO EXPIRE!! DAMNITT!!! ARGH!!

I was so blurred out today, that when BK n I was walking down from 2nd floor of T15, I swore another white shirt shoulder behind me. I thought one of the archers caught up and was trying to surprise us. I spun around... And NO ONE! Mind playing games with me again.

Then in the toilet @ the MRT station, I was washing my hands when this guy came in. I saw him, but as I was leaving the basin, I turned and walked INTO him instead, as though I didn't know he was there! I mean, I really somehow didn't REALISE he was there!! He fell back like 2-3 stepped and I began to apologise like crazy, and had to give my best "SMILE" for such a goof up. Something wrong with my eyes... seeing things that are not there, and not seeing things that are there... argh!


Below is a picture of two dolphins. Take a second, take a deep breath...
If you can see both dolphins, your stress level is within the acceptable range. If you see anything other than two dolphins, your stress level is too high and you need a break - take the rest of today off of work.



I NEED a break. Do you? listening to the rain... 9:25 PM 0 comments

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Shoot or don't shoot?

Decisions decisions decisions! Got MSTs coming up, and archery tomorrow. Less than 20% prepared for my MST papers, and haven't really totally recovered my form. I need to do both... argh! But I can't... damn.

I wanted to wake up this morning to start work on revision as well. Ended up waking up at 3pm. Felt so sick that I didn't want to get up. Missed lunch, missed revision time. I didn't know how I managed to drag my ass off the bed and up for a quick snack, medication and some revision. Some herculean feat of the mind.

Was staring at my MAD notes. (Stands for Mobile Applications Development, but MAD/INSANE works too!) I read the lines, nothing goes in. My head refuses to absorb. I don't know why!! Its not that its zoned out, its just so distracted thinking of every other thing except whats in front of me! Like one of those days, u're wondering why your computer's running ur application so slowly? Press control-alt-del and u see that the CPU usage is 100% on OTHER stuff except the desired application.

I need a reboot. Whatever the anthropomorphic representation of a reboot is, I'll take it!

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Starhub!!!

I am super frustrated with Starhub MaxOnline now. Those bloody bastards are disconnecting me once every two hours for no bloody reason. I call them up to ask them why, they claim that they are not! What the hell?! Every time I'm in game or something, I get disconnected halfway, ARGHH!!

Spent much of today playing games, surfing youtube etc. Nothing productive. YES! I BLOODY KNOW THE MSTs ARE COMING! Just can't seem to get into gear to study... Sigh. So easily distracted... I feel like eating Dark chocolate mints. Need to really sit down and focus myself on revision. First paper is MAD, mainly MCQ. I missed 2 important lectures and it seems that those 2 would have heavy weightage. Bloody hell.

Yes, dark chocolate mints... yummy!

Tomorrow's gonna be another entire day of decomposing at home. Hopefully, I can do something meaningful while decomposing. Like say.... study? Revise? Work on E-learning? Dark Chocolate mints...

Was reading the news the last couple of days. Especially on the Saddam trial. In case you all haven't heard, the old man is gonna be sentenced to death. Mostly for crimes against humanity. Initially, defiant, he now asks for forgiveness. Everyman fears death. Even the most ruthless of dictators. According to more recent headlines, he would hang by the end of this year. Now, not that I pity him, but knowing that by the end of this year, another person would die.

Ever wondered what it feels to be headed for the gallows. Every step you take towards the rope, feels like your last. All of a sudden, you realise that there has been so much to life that you have missed out, people you love. And soon, all that would be gone. Scary. Is there really a need for the death penalty? What can one learn after they die? Is death the ultimate rehabilitation?

Aiy. I hope I don't have to face death in such a manner. I think I'd be scared stiff. I'd get a mental breakdown before anything even happens.
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On a lighter note... Here's a joke for y'all.

Ireland's worst air disaster occurred early this morning when a small 2-seater Cessna plane crashed into a cemetery. Irish search & rescue workers have recovered 126 bodies so far & expect that number to climb as digging continues into the night. listening to the rain... 10:30 PM 0 comments

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In thought

I really wanted to sleep in today. Unfortunately, my nose didn't let me have uninterrupted sleep. I woke up a quite a few times in the night to reach for a tissue to plug my leaking nose. No, I didn't call the plumber yet. Finally, and reluctantly crawled out of bed at 11.30am for lunch.

Spent a bit of after lunch hours just lazing about, downloading anime. Quite fruitful. Downloaded like 4 animes today. Wish I could say the same for my e-learning assignments and revisions for MST. Did 1 Flash assignment today, and thats it. Took nice lil afternoon naps here n there to pass the day. Before you criticise me for being lazy and piggish, I'd like to say that I needed the rest. Been kinda sick the past few days.

Had few strange dreams while taking my naps. Could remember them cos my naps were rather short I guess. I dreamt that I was on the WTC towers when the fire was burning. It was so hot that when I saw others leap off the building to escape the fire, I followed. I remember vividly, standing on the edge, looking down and hoping for some form of deliverance... a helicopter, or some firemen with those funny looking air bags to catch me. But it was too high. The entire "free-fall" feeling still tingles my spine, as the wind blasted across my face. The city streets began to look bigger, and bigger. It felt as though the whole earth had rushed up to meet me. After that, as my favorite author would put it, "The world exploded into a million pieces."

Scary huh. Maybe they should have kept parachutes on high rise buildings for unanticipated emergency situations such as 9/11.

Oh, besides sleeping, slacking and working on Flash, I managed to play a bit of Navy Field as well. Finally, I managed to get promoted and bought myself a new ship! Fantastic.. I can carry more guns now. Heavier ones too. And I am no longer in the ranks of "Torp Whores." =D

Hurrah! Now... I need something to look forward to... listening to the rain... 11:58 PM 0 comments

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The Prestige

Totally AWESOME movie. Its one of those movies that keeps you flying by the seat of your pants, and its not with action sequence. Rather, it grips the audience with its intricately detailed plot, twists and cryptic dialogue. The entire movie seems to have based around the fictional 3 acts of magic. That is, the Pledge, the Turn and the Prestige. Its not easy to catch it while you're watching it, (like I said, you're flying by the seat of your pants), but its the kinda "OHHHhhh I gedddittt!!" that hits you 5 hours later when you're at home blogging. Watch out for those short, seemingly minute yet impactful scenes in the movie, these are the clues to understanding the plot.

For all of you who haven't caught this one yet, make it a point to catch it before its off the cinemas otherwise, you'll have to make do with a DVD. (Which is quite advantageous since you can watch it again and again and again...) There is little I can add to describe this movie except that its got a great plot, powerful actors, and a masterfully directed by Christopher Nolan. An excellent movie with much cinematic symbolism. 4.5 popcorns out of 5 from me!


Yeap! It was movie day. Met Sam @ cineleisure to catch the prestige. BK was supposed to join us, but did not make it in time. Spent a bit of time chit chatting and makaning after the movie as well... and we talked about.... "Basketball courts." Muahahaha. Thats our new Codename now. "Basketball Court." Sam, BK, you both are sworn to secrecy not to reveal the meaning of the codeword. =D

Still sick, but still out and about. Now I really feel my entire body aching and protesting. Its one of those, "can't move a muscle or it'll hurt" kinda ache. I'm trying to figure out if the aches are from the Badminton game or from the cold. Could be both... Thats not the annoying part. I can't smell all the good food I ate today. Now thats sad! Taste buds not very responsive either... darn. I need a massive dose of Vit C ASAP!

On the serious note. I feel a sharp pain in my back. Like a knife sticking out from it... I don't know why or who "placed" it there. Whether it was done on purpose or by accident. I don't know why it was done, and to what ends it was supposed to achieve. I am disappointed and rather pissed off. I guess its true that its hard to trust anyone these days. Whatever and Whoever, I Will Be Watching.

Homo homini lupus est listening to the rain... 11:23 PM 0 comments

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Bloody.......

I feel like unleashing a torrent of obscenities now... This stupid cold is getting on my nerves. My throat feels like its on fire. My nose as well, thanks to the constant sneezing. Coupled with a stupid headache and bodyache... urgh!

Fortunately my mood ain't as bad cos I was watching this really stupid funny anime. Its about these 4 drop dead gorgeous guys who were given the impossible task of transforming a dreadful little girl into an elegant lady. Its not a very "high level" humor, but one of those slap stick comedies where you don't have to think too hard to get a good laugh. One of the dumbest recurring nonsense was the girl's nosebleeding habit whenever she sees the guys. And strangely, after seeing so much blood, I began to check if my sneezes were actually high velocity streams of blood droplets. Nope. =D

Aights, enough laughter, blood and pathogen for one night. Time to hit the sack! Au revoir! listening to the rain... 1:52 AM 0 comments

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If a vegetarian eats vegetables... What da hell does a humanitarian eat?!

Sian 1/2... Of all the time to fall sick, I fall sick when I don't have to go to school. Dammit! Feeling the sore throat coming... u know, that feeling like ur throat has turned into sand paper. Then the blocked nose as well... Eh.. where is the magic spot to press to clear blocked nose ah??

Marvellous. I lost half a tube of facial wash. Why? Dear brother decided that the tube required a wash... in the toilet bowl. Just kidding lar, he dropped it in accidentally and helped me throw it away. So helpful... =P

Oh, I did end up going to school today. Met Bern and her friends for Badminton. Yes, I know, I shouldn't play when I'm falling sick. But I guess going to school for a game versus staying at home rotting, I'll rather go play. We played until we all zoned out on the court. The only guy who was still awake enough to make the quick parries was Brandon. (I think that was his name...) By then, I was slicing the racket through thin air, hoping I make contact with the shuttlecock.

Oh, I lost like a dollar fifty or something in the court. The coins were jingling while I was playing and I kinda got annoyed, took them out, and put them beside the court. Being my usual self, I forgot about it completely, and left the coins there. Enjoy your free drink, whoeover who picks them up!

It kinda started to rain shortly after we stopped playing... so ended up in clubhouse chatting til evening before calling it a day. Oh. And true to my usual self... I was hungry as hell by the time I got back home. Almost finished all the food on the table. My grandma was well pleased!

I think I kinda see the signs of ageing on my face already. Really sad... the wrinkles appearing on my forehead. I have no idea how I'd look when I'm 60. Hope I don't turn into a dried prune already. Now, how much is SK2 going at? listening to the rain... 9:38 PM 1 comments

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My new blog skin!

At last! I've completed my new blogskin! Its another military themed blogskin, and I call it "Base of Fire!" The original image I worked upon was a touched up photo from militaryphotos.net. The rest was added and worked on by yours truly.

Most of the internal layout hasn't changed much. I'm kinda too lazy to change it as well. So this will be all the changes for now. At least until I get an inspiration to create another new skin. Give me an honest opinion on this look. I don't care if you think it sucks, I'm proud of my work anyways. =D

Nothing memorable on Sunday. Went to service as usual. Zoned out at the cafeteria as usual. I think my brain just decide to "quit thinking" for a while. Came back and it decided to exercise its creative half rather than its logic half. I've got a wacky mind, and I make no apologies for it.

I think I'd better be off. Its late and I need to catch my zzz. Gotta wake up to head for school for a game of badminton. Sharks... and I think I caught a cold from Isaac. Ran a slight fever earlier. Time to flush the body with water! =D

Toodles! listening to the rain... 1:15 AM 0 comments

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I've got a bad feeling about this...

Its one of those hunches again. A little internal siren going "AMBER ALERT, AMBER ALERT!" I can't say what yet, but I supposed I'll find out in the week to come. The impression that I get is that this week is gonna be rough. Bow to my 1337! psyChiC powers!

Yes, SP Mucked it up again. I just saw the ITP placement preference for local companies. I'm horrified to say the least. Why? First of all, its the quality of the companies. The type that literally screams, "You're here to help wash the cups and make coffee!" There were only 2 DECENT companies. And a totaly of 58 places offered altogether. Yes, 58! For the entire DICT course. School of EEE, WELL DONE!

Had a good time at archery today! Managed to correct my form somewhat. I think, if given a few more training sessions, and readjusting to the new 16 ply string, I'd be able to regain my form completely. The price of slacking off training for a month.

I'm wondering whats wrong with me. I can't help falling asleep everytime I have to sit through something, be it a lecture or service/sermon. I can sleep 10 hours before that, and STILL fall asleep. ARgh! Thats like a far cry from working 48 hrs without sleep when I was in the Army. Maybe its cos I lack exercise... hmmm. Better work on that soon. listening to the rain... 11:15 PM 0 comments

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Sleepless in Singapore...

Ahhh... couldn't sleep. Ended up playing Navyfield until now. Managed to raise 1 more level. 3 more Levels to DDX... my long lost destroyer. =D

Looking forward to archery later. Still in the process of regaining my shooting form. Not an easy task... somehow my bow feels very foreign to me now. Maybe its time to get a new bow. Oh wait... stupid me. Still got no cash for that. =/

The Z-monster beckons. Goodnight! listening to the rain... 3:25 AM 0 comments

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http://www.soyouthinkyouknowitall.com

Does being optimistic about things really help? Or the idealistic saying that, if you can't change the circumstances, you change the person?

Maybe it might work for some people. Some can simply feel better and happier by being optimistic whenever unfortunate events occur. Sadly, when you slide the "unfortunate-O-meter" down to the most extreme end, to a label say... "tragedy." Will they still be able to be optimistic? Chances are, these people will crash and burn the hardest. All along, they find ways to look for ways and means to take delight or consolation in the hardest situations. But what if, there is really NOTHING left to be optimistic about? There will be no more illusions to hide in.

I say, get used to letting reality bite and sink its serrated edged teeth into you. Get used to the pain and the bleeding. It tells you that you are still alive. The strength of a pessimistic person is that he prepares for the worst, expects it, but hopes for the best. Yes, I'm stubborn. I like the way I think because it prepares me. I don't feel as hurt if something really goes awfully wrong.

And "thanks" for the prophecy, that all my friends WILL leave me and abandon me to be all alone, because of my pessimism and negativity. I'll prepare myself for such an "eventuality."

Life, or at least, my life, is NOT a utopia with rainbows and pots of honey at the end of it. It doesn't contain cute little furry carebears that hop around singing about their tatoos on their bellies. And I do not even like to delude myself to even THINK that there are some components of those in my life. I am only familiar with the cold, hard facets of life. Life where people die everyday, people hurt you every day, and everything is there to rip you to shreds.

I don't see a need to feel grateful and blessed to be living in Singapore. We think we ought to be cause we are "Safe" from the harms and violences of this world. We think we appreciate it that we are better off. I think we are too well shielded from the cruelties of this world to deserve a right to think that way. We are living in an illusion. Its time to wake up and smell the coffee, bub.
**Imagine walking up to a lame man and say how you really feel. "I am thankful that I can walk, unlike you." **

Though I may not be a "Happy" and "content" person by most definitions, I think I appreciate the good times, more than anyone else. I'm glad that there are still good friends around me (though some are rather mislead), in a world full of dirty, rotten and lying backstabbers. In a way, I guess it can be said that I am only thankful and happy for having good friends around me. Why should I feel happy or thankful for inanimate objects?

Thats all for my rants. For now.

Woke up late today. Really late. Missed school completely... but still went down to the club house to collect anime from Bern. Spent a bit of time there to watch some anime and left later to do buy a few t-shirts at this mini shopping mall near my place with BK.

The stuff there are not bad... cheaply priced too! The designs weren't fantastic, but I like the cutting. Came back home, rested and had a simple dinner with my granny.

Its kinda quiet lately. Hardly anyone around the house. No smses on my phone. (today was actually an exception. LOL! I got 2 messages!) REally quiet. listening to the rain... 5:45 PM 0 comments

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Sleepy & dizzy, Tired & Busy.

I have no idea what's wrong with me. I've been lethargic as hell the past couple of days. Every lecture I go, I end up falling asleep. There seems to be no way to keep my mind awake. If that wasn't bad enough, been getting a couple of rounds of dizzy spells. It can come all of a sudden, or occassionally when I stand up. One of those, "woah, why the hell is the earth spinning?" kinda experiences.

MSTs are round the corner, so's E-learning week. I look at the amount of stuff I need to cover for E-learning week and I feel like puking. Its disgusting. I hate being Year 2. Lots of quizzes and tests coming up as well... argh!

I've lost count of how long its been we last contacted. After such a length of time, I feel that I've lost a friend. Perhaps we were never friends in the first place? I don't know. It doesn't have to be this way, but it turned out like this. I suppose its my retribution.

Skipped Boating theory lecture today. Didn't feel like going. I didn't feel like going into another lecture to sleep. Its a waste of time. Time that I'd rather spend trying to wind down. Ended up surfing youtube and chilling before heading for FYP briefing. After that, headed off to the library to borrow the "Tears of the sun" DVD and a music CD to rip. I just wanted to see the scene where their team did the "Center Peel." Really awesome stuff.

3rd Year sounds like HELL WEEK the lasts for 52 weeks. On top of the FYP, we've got to take another entire semester's worth of modules. EXAMINABLE. Which means have to mug for our exams, and work on our FYP while attending classes, coping with ICAs and tests. Not to mention the dreaded ITP coming at the end of this semesters. No holidays.... This semester doesn't feel like it lasts only half a year. No, because of the ITP, this feels like a YEAR long semester.

I think I'm getting way too distracted lately. Time to regroup and reorganise my thoughts. Thats the problem with people who think too much. listening to the rain... 8:57 PM 0 comments

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Guitars guitars...

Guitars are damn hard to learn. ARGHH!! My fingers are dying cos of them. Btw, meet the family of guitars at home.



Thats Mommy with Junior on the left, and Daddy semi-acoustic on the right. I think.

Close your eyes... Are you who you wanna be? says:
guitar is soo friggin hard to learn
Mandy - Dear ALL, please don't open any link that I'd sent in the morning, I'm so sorry, it's a virus!! says:
hhahahaha
Mandy - Dear ALL, please don't open any link that I'd sent in the morning, I'm so sorry, it's a virus!! says:
really
Mandy - Dear ALL, please don't open any link that I'd sent in the morning, I'm so sorry, it's a virus!! says:
my dad thins it's easy
Close your eyes... Are you who you wanna be? says:
ur dad is like a rock solid guitar player... =/

Yes, I know most of you out there are like guitar pros... but I'm not. I'm n00b! I can't play F-chord right, nor can I spell it right! Heh! Still, hand is cramping up from trying to even hold down the F-chord. Damn!

Damn sian lar... The moment I think about the MAD lecture tomorrow morning... can die. Dragging my ass off my bed at 6am just to make it to school at 8am. Can you spell "W T F?" Gonna have to overdose on coffee again. Getting a case of the sweet tooth attack as well. I need a dosage of Ice cream, cake, waffle or anything. OH! And apparently, waffles are half price at Gelare's on Tuesdays! (KUDOS TO JOLENE FOR THE TIP! YOU ROCK! ) Anyone up for waffles or ice cream?

Had a little discussion with BK on the bus journey back. We were kinda talking about what we would be say maybe 10 years down the road. Somehow the discussion cleared some stuff up for me abit. Gave me a better view of things. This is what I figured.

WANTS

• I want to Climb, promote fast.


• I want to have say, and for my say to actually mean something

DON'T WANTS

• To be a boss.


• Lose time with Family.

LIKES

• I like to research.


• To read up.


• To discuss

DISLIKES

• to WORK for living.


• To actually DO stuff.


• 9 to 5 desk jobs

What does that mean for me? I can think of a few jobs that might suit me nicely.

1. A teacher.


2. A consultant.

A consultant to what... I haven't really figured out yet. Maybe something I'm good at. Maybe I'll find out what I'm good at now? Okay, a pop quiz for ALL OF YOU. What do you THINK I might be a good consultant at? Tag! listening to the rain... 12:30 AM 0 comments

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