Drifting n Shaking.
Just kinda laying in my bed now. Not really doing much besides thinking of what I wanna blog about. Listening and feeling my own heart beat, and enjoying that "drifting" sensation every time I lie down. Call it my cheap thrill. There's this funny sensation of drifting/floating, as I feel my own heart throb against the mattress. Ha!
Was out in the afternoon for Archery today. I intended to take score, however, by the time I got round to it, it started to rain. Only managed to record for 2 ends and it started to pour.
Went to town after archery for Ice Cream at Swensens. Haven't been there for makan for damn long time already. So many familiar sights and sounds as I walked along Orchard. So many places bring memories of time spent together, and the same question that has bugged me ever since. What did I do wrong? Am I that terrible? Spent a bit of time pondering at those places that we were at, running through every single conversation that we had, and what I did... I simply can't recall if there was anything I did or said that she could have been displeased with. I did everything a friend would do. I dared not suggest anything else.
Thats history already I guess. I'm already over her. Unfortunately, I'm not a person who enjoys "not knowing", hence, some of these questions bug me. Knowing that I did something to lose a friendship like that, haunts me.
However, thanks to her, I also learned to see the poor. There were so many people out there, asking for donations and alms. An old man sat under one of the decorated trees, playing on his harmonica. He was an amputee and was missing a leg. Even as it started to drizzle, he did not show signs of packing up or leave, but continued to play. It was a rhetorical question that came up, "why doesn't he leave for shelter? He's not completely immobile." The answer flowed naturally. He didn't have the luxury to. Remember the poor.
It's been a long day for me. But a good one. Really had a good day hanging out with the archers, thanks to Bern's great Ice Cream Suggestion. Ice Cream always makes people happy. Tested and proven, people smile(externall and internally) more when they are eating Ice Cream!
Research proves that Ice Cream is great!Paiseh if I've been a little out of it today though. A lot of unanswered questions to ponder about.
listening to the rain...
11:19 PM
