No mood...

Seems like I have much to apologize for. For going out with peeps with a long face, bringing my problems along, letting them cloud over an otherwise happy occasion. Didn't mean it, but just that sometimes I can't help it.

Situation at home seems to have quietened down a bit. Though I still get a few critically harsh remarks every now and then. Before I sound lame for getting upset over words, I'd like to first say that words mean a lot to me. A few sharp words or phrases can cut me and piss me off. Sometimes, I'll be able to be nice and shrug it off, sometimes, I'll react. And thats coming from people I don't know well.

Words from people close to me, affect me a lot more. I think that needs no explanation.

Words represents a person's thoughts, and intentions. So when heard her threaten to throw me out, I can see the intention behind it. Besides, I know that she does not make empty threats.

Stress of coming home now feels like one walking on a tight rope. Stressing me to maintain the fine balance and not spark off another argument. I'd really love to stay out longer everyday, and avoid facing the tense atmosphere at home. I really do. But that itself my invoke another, "you treat my home like a hotel" series of argument.

So what do I do when I'm caught between an immovable object and an irresistible force?

Perhaps my life is really too nice and easy without all these additional "bonus stage" events. listening to the rain... 11:05 PM

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