"Goodbye" is a pretty tough word

I sent two people off today. Two very dear people.

First, was my brother. Sent him off to Shangri La Tekong for his BMT. What a pleasant surprise to see that he's been sent to Mohawk Coy, the same company I did my BMT with initially. The same basketball court that I sweat upon in the numerous tekan sessions, yeah he'll get it too.

The room's kinda quiet without him. I said, "I'll cya on the 29th when you book out. Transformers!" Nuff said.

Second, my dear friend Bernice. A few of us spent a night at her place for a movie marathon. It wasn't a rowdy affair lar... just moments in the company of friends. After sending my bro off, I headed for the airport to send Bern off. Managed to find the M-Flo CD she wanted to get for her going away gift. Beyond that, I didn't speak to her much. I didn't say "goodbye."

Its a tough word for me to use. To me, its a word that means, "I don't know when I'll see you again." It implies that, that there is probably isn't a chance in hell that our paths would cross. I hate that word. Thats why I always say, "I'll cya in XXXX." So much so to a point that I didn't know what to say to my dear friend as she left. I can't say, "I'll cya in.... " Cos I really don't know when we'd ever meet again. I didn't want to say goodbye. I'll probably say it a someone's funeral yeah...

So Bern, if u read this, sorry I didn't say "goodbye." Its not something I want to say to you yet! Our paths may cross yet again, I just don't know when.

Its been such a long day...

Its getting kinda quiet.

Another sunset. listening to the rain... 10:07 PM

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