*SneeZe* ... brain plops out.

I don't know why I find this hilarious... I just do.



Spent like 5 hour in school waiting. Waiting to see a lecturer to consider if I wanna join in his FYP project. It sounds good, but I can't seem to make up my mind. Time is running out for me to select FYP, I need to come to a decision soon. AHhh!

Ate quite a bit to eat in school today. Had Chicken rice for lunch and then a Japanese Cod Fillet bun... *God knows its not Japanese Cod.* And a bag of fries. I'm gonna grow sideways, there's no avoiding it. I shall embrace my fate... FEED ME!

Oh a bit of good news. I collected my award for year 1's academic results! $200 richer!! WoO HOO!! If it wasn't for the cheque, I wouldn't have bothered myself to attend and collect. Now that I have $200 more, what should I do? *slowly ponder*

*Pondering to... Existentialism* Very interesting philosophical movement there. Do a search on wiki if u have the time to boggle ur mind. Its a bit hard to accept at first, cos its not totally rational. It proposes that existence precedes essence. That a man exists before his existence has any meaning or value. I like this part that says, "Man defines the value or meaning of both his existence and the world around him in his own subjectivity, and wanders between choice, freedom, and existential angst" And to extremes, a man's existence can have so little meaning, that he may actually create obstacles for himself so that he can overcome them to escape the boredom of a meaningless life. Self created victories that are eventually, meaningless. Yes, I've said it. LIFE IS MEANINGLESS.

It makes me wonder sometimes. All that I've gone through, all the obstacles, the crap... how much of it was forced upon me by fate and destiny. And how much of it was self imposed to help me kill time.

Strangely though, the Sith (race of really evil guys in Star Wars) Philosophy, code and mantra, embraces existentialism. A slightly more warped form. The Sith Code itself imposes a harsh and cruel view of the world, and emboldens an aggressive posture to overcome its challengers.

The Sith Code
Peace is a lie, there is only passion.
Through passion, I gain strength.
Through strength, I gain power.
Through power, I gain victory.
Through victory, my chains are broken.
The Force shall free me.

The Existentialist focuses on Anger and despair as key emotions. Again, like the Existentialist, the Sith focuses very much on the quest for passion and freedom, and the concept of defining one's own destiny. We all crave the power. We all desire to create and destroy as we please. In a way, all of us are very much "Sith." Or at least, I AM. listening to the rain... 1:00 AM

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